Last time I typed on here was a tuesday just last april. My birthday is in april as well. It has been a while but I think about april quite often and whent the next time I have a "reason" to throw a party is. Of course I know I can throw a party if I really wanted to whenever but I can't throw a party at my parents house whenever and so that is why I must wait till april.

The wait isn't long or bad I would say I am a particuarlly patient person. But I've noticed recently, that I say something about myself and find it to be really not true, though I shouldn't but nessaraly trying to desribe myself with a label. For example I keep calling myself dramatic but I've noticed what I consider dramatic other people do and don't apologize for. When I am babsitting I tell the child to be careful but often times I am not. Really before he does anything like he pushed over a chair and before I let him I said be careful... which is dramatic. Why don't I be more careful sometimes, I could let someone know everything of what I think or prefibly say nothing of what I am thinking. instead I just keep it at a little bit of both but I typically keep the real stuff to myself.

I know I would rather jump to conclutsion than wait for soemthing deciding who someone is when i first meet them is much easier than waiting and getting to knwo them even if I don't even liek them at all. So I guess I might not even be a patient person at all but I do still have to wait so why would I even complain at all.